Friday, December 30, 2005
I miss you...I feel so empty inside of me.My soul is like so...dead.I see you everyday but yet do you think there was enough communication?I know you have Dian to concentrate on when I'm not around,thk you for that.But just 5mins would hurt calling me up?Even then each time i call you u'd said u're busy or either so u'd b pissed at me cutting thru the internet line or u being tired n not wishing to talk or there'e a gr8 show on TV thats just too good to b missed.Maybe I'm to be blame for concentrating too much at work.am i?Even when I'm at work,my my heart n soul is at home thinking abt the both of you.I bet you didnt know that n to think that u'd accused of being with some other man.Sometime's I wonder if we're meant to be.I wish I could see e future.Cos if there's no US at the end of the day,I just want to pack up n leave knowing that we'd never b THERE.Too much memories hurt.I'm not that strong to overcome the pain.
Where are you?the old you...I miss you so so so much.You were always here to make me happy,cherish me,meke me feel beautiful,make me like i'm on top of e world, u use to hold me close n put me to sleep...i miss all of that most importantly its you missing in my heart.Don't you think i've been patient enough just watching this acts of yours n still accepting it?U asked what i want for christmas when I presented to you ur gifts,I told you all I want is for to treat me right.But...are u fulfilling my wish?I'm thankful meeting you n having you in my life.Our journey in this relationship was not a smooth sailing one either.but this time around its the first i'm seeing that there is no longer US.
I'm leaving.and I'm sorry.Let's just have our time apart.If you think there's something to this love worth saving for,even so,we'd talk abt that later.Spare me the pain,Zaki.Do i have to beg you to LOVE ME?Ibu's so sorry my darling Dian if me n ur dad doenst work out.So sorry to put u in this position.I love you still,Zaki but maybe e time's just not right yet.Maybe.
I remember how it used to be...
Where nothing else mattered but you and me.
Candies, walks, gifts, and Long term Talks.
I miss you, I wish you could see...
How much I think about you and me...
I remember when you said, I was your everything. I remember when you mean is that too. Now, when you say it, it's more like a phrase. And ur sweet nothings, make me cry more over you.
Those days when you'd call just to say hi..Back when it was so hard just to say goodbye.
Down my heart, there forms a crack.
It was created a little while ago... Because of how much I want you back.
The old you, the one I thought I knew.
For all of these years, we went from being friends to being in love...
It seems to me, now, like We're none of the above.
I dont't want to let go...
I have tried and tried. The endless solution; I cried and cried.
Tears of pain and tears of hope...
It was these times I need you just to cope.
You turn around and hurt me bad, you spin my heart, and make me sad.
Your actions don't stop and yet I forgive you everytime...I wish I could say that you are only mine.
Don't you miss me, don't you care?
Isn't the love that I have to give enough to help us through? Why can't it be enough baby I'm so in love with you? I guess as time goes on and it continues...
What was once your everything, is all you have to loose.
I remember how it used to be...
Where nothing else mattered but you and me.
Those times, When time simply stood still...
and we kissed, that perfect kiss .
Why did he take it away from me? It's because that is how reality is.
___i m Loved-
5:27 am
